It’s been hard

It’s been hard to hold all this hurt deep inside
I try and stop the tears from coming down my eyes
I love a man that doesn’t love me enough to even change for me
It’s been hard to stop my heart from loving him so hard
I drive myself crazy doing and saying crazy shit to make him feel the pain I feel
But the only thing I do is  make shit get even worse for me
Tell me how can person be so cruel to talk to me and treat me the way that he do
To even make a woman suffer because of his past issues
It’s been hard for me to be the best I can be
Because I can’t stop trying to get this man to love me
I believe he hates shit I believe he loves manipulating me
Hell maybe he gets his rocks off by hurting me
I just don’t know what to do I’m the main one trying