Unrequited love

I drink my tears every day and night,
I swim in my tears and soak  myself in them,
I detest myself so much for all I've been put through because of you,
The first time I saw you I thought I had seen my other half,
I thought I had seen my guardian angel,
You made me have an affection for you till I couldn't control my life anymore,
You became my  everything, my guiding light,
But to my surprise it was all a game to you,
What game should I call this?  A game of deceit!!!
                                            @Fkoan